So this is me.... I have gone CRAZY..... lol and I thought you should know before you read my blog so you don't stop yourself at one point and ask have I lost my mind....you know now the answer is YES... in advance!
So it has been a LONG time since I posted Anything on the blog, I have been avoiding it. Avoiding talking about this CRAZY year with the good and the bad! Were do I start?
I did post some summer pictures in August, but havent really posted anything since Last February right!?! I do like blogging love looking at everyones elses but when I sit down to write I draw a blank of things I feel like sharing with the world... lol not that my lifes so interesting but mainly because it sounds like when I am done typing I have done alot of complaining! I am not really that person... well not all the time lol I guess I will start with the bad get it over with to end on a good note! :) So Here goes... 2009 has been a year of learning for Gary and I 2009 just didn't start off right and only got worse. In June 2009 someone oh so special to us passed away. Garys cousin Britney was living with us all last winter she had moved home in February of 2009 to Michigan. ( were my garys from) Britney committed suicide June 1st of 2009. DEVASTATED... the only word that can even come close to how I feel. Britney was like a little sister to me. The amount of Guilt that I will forever harbor for this great loss causes me so much pain. Britney was a "Light" some one that could always lightn your mood make you smile and absolutely entertaining. One person I could NEVER imagine losing to something like this. Her Pictures and memory we hold close to now but oh how I miss our long talks, Britneys millions of goofy laughs and all the fun times we had together. She is in a better place and free from pain but I am selfish and regularly wish her back. I feel blessed to have had her in my life, but I do wish I had done things differently and knew just how unhappy she was. Life is full of suprises, good and bad... but I like to remember her this way, happy and full of life. The way she was!! RIP Miss Britney your so loved and missed.
The next few months are a blur. Tieler has been in JUST speech therapy and doing well we took a break for august and september for her and more for me! September was my and Garys 3 yr anniversary but our sixth year together... CRAZY It feels like so long to say six years! Gary turned thirty bwhahahahahahahahahahahahhahaha and I turned 27 :( boo. This is a picture of Gary and I on our anniversary this year 9/16 at Texas Road House. We had a enjoyable night off from the kids and a Great Birthday party thanks to family and friends! We got so Lucky this summer my kids were actually pretty healthy! ( since they are always sick it seems) Besides me and tie having pneumonia in may we went till October without much more than some sniffles from allergies! Good ole October came with bang, Gary had been having less and less work we were struggling! and Decided it would be best for him to take a job with the company he had originally worked for they had loads of work we could not pass up the chance of getting caught back up. He took the job and a week later we found out that even though we were done... DONE having kids that we were PREGNANT ? Can we say shocked was an understatement... lol just our luck! We had gotten rid of everything and as most of you know me and gary dont have the best Genes mashed together our poor kids with their Asthma, sucky immune systems, food, outdoor, and pet allergies, etc. we didnt want another kids to go through it! Even though we do make the cutest babies... it was the plan and we were satisfied with our two sweet babies we had. But we are adjusting and getting to the exciting part now were I can wait to see what he looks like! October was also eventfull in the allergy area for Tieler. We didn't think tie had asthma Jax was diagnosed at 8 months so we didnt think m uch of it till fall of 09 when we noticed a cpl small symptoms... Dr Bitner the allergist we see prescribed a flovent inhaler and we didnt fill the script. we just weren't sure! We also discovered that after the whole begining part of the yr tieler had been almost proved non allergic to peanuts, ( we were stoked) but at her october scratch test we were stunned when her back started to swell a welt the size of her hand from the peanut further testing showed that the allergy had gotten so bad it was now along with egg in the Deadly range for her! :( So no PB&J for tie! October was really good financially Gary was working all the time gone alot but the bills were aid and we weren't stressing about money we had began looking for a house and in no time ( 1 month) we found the perfect place! December started out Crazt too, As our like 12th move in 6 years I was pregnant a sick, Tie also had a old and we found out if we wanted this house we had very little time to get it we moved in about three days! on the fourth day Gary went back to work and my girlfriends came over to help us unpack. Tie wasn't acting like herself hummed and cried all day bu the time gary got home I asked him to listen to her breathing he is the breathing PRO! He freaked out and began nebulizing her over and over it didnt help we ran into an insta care thinking some steroids would help. Her oxygen was at 80! they said they could do nothing for us and sent us to Primary childrens were we stayed for the next four days. Tie was Hypoxic, couldnt maintain her oxygen it was hard, har being away from my Jaxen and Hard feeling so helpless with Tieler. So Tieler has Asthma... and it Really bad, not suprised I guess! This is Tie in the hospital. After four days of Hell we talked them into letting us go home with an oxygen tank wich she was only on for a week. It sucked! But now we know and are on top of her meds! Jaxen is freakin 4 1/2! He is soo sweet and loving he wrestles gary to save the princess( Tie) lol and has began name calling. Its not a bad thing actually because he doesnt realize how nice he is beig it is hard not to laugh just today he was mad at me for not letting him play the play station he stomped upstairs and yelled at me that I was a big piece of chocolate cake! LOL he called Grandpa a piece of sugar the other day and his aunt alyssa a smarty brains... I love it he is my helper a big boy I do not want him to get any bigger I love age 4! Tieler is talking more than ever she was at a ten word vocab. till last month and now she is a chatter box its crazy she is doing so well We have so much to be happy for! the kids are doing great Gary is doing well work is good, and soon we will have a new sweet baby boy. I am 24 weeks and counting down! this has been a hard pregnancy but that's why I hate being pregnant they have all been hard, but the gift is so worth it! Baby is due May 27th and hopefully you will see regular posts about the things going on and not a novel of the year! LOL I am going to post a cpl more pics below! the kids are getting sooo Big! Were so blessed and looking forward to 2010 being a great year!